Last year was a year of finding out who I really was and was purposed to be. A lot of people, for a long time have been telling me that I would be someone great and very influential. That even my name "Terri Todd" sounds like I should be famous or something. I remember sometimes thinking to myself that a lot of these people are crazy! I mean what are they seeing that I don't see? I know that I'm good at a lot of things and I love talking to people. I'm either talking too much or not enough! Any way, at the beginning of 2010 I was desperately trying to identify myself. I mean I know Terri the wife, Terri the mother, Terri the sister, Terri the aunt, and now I have a new one added, Terri the grandmother! But who was Terri the individual? This was the million dollar question for me!
I was brought up in the church, my dad was and still is a pastor and my mom was right by his side. For as long as I could remember my life has been centered around the church. It wasn't until I was 32 years old that I began my journey into this thing called "WOMANHOOD!" It was the end of winter, 1999, and mind you I was already married and had three children by this time! But I remember the day clearly, as I walked down the parking lot across the street from the church that I had grown up in. My dad and I had this big argument about the Day Care (that I started and now he wanted to take over). As I was walking down the lot, I heard a voice (God) whisper in my ear and said "If you stay, you'll lose everything, your marriage, your kids, and your relationship with your father, but if you go you will live and receive everything that I have for you!" Well tears started streaming down my face and I couldn't stop crying. The voice went on to say "Don't look back! Get in your car and don't look back! Keep looking straight ahead!" and as I put the key into the ignition and started my car, the voice said "Now close this chapter of your book, I am about to take you into a new chapter of your life! This chapter is called "WOMANHOOD!" Long story short, it was then that I started learning how to take care of my family by myself without anyone's approval or unwanted advice. I began to stand on my own two feet and trust the decisions made by my husband and me. This was by no means easy but it was certainly satisfying!
My mother died December 15th, 2007 only two weeks before her 69th birthday. If I hadn't left that day in 1999, I would not have been able to make it when God took her in 2007. God gave me eight years (the number of new beginnings) to mature and grow a little before He took her home. God does all things well!
Still growing and still learning, fast-forward to April of 2010 I get a call from a long time friend who remembered that I used to sew. I was always making my clothes as a teenager and made clothes for my kids and different outfits for other people. I loved making clothes for little girls seeing that that was all I had. It was a secret long time dream when I graduated high school that my father would let me go to FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology) in NYC. But I was discouraged by him from doing that because he said that it was good to do for a hobby but not for a career. So that ended up being a dream that was quietly tucked away..... until things began to happen last year! I started making tutus and outfits for little girls again and began doing fashion shows and getting into this whole fashion thing again!

It woke up something in me and the possibilities of fulfilling that old dream that was tucked away! But was I too old now? Was it too late for me to be pursuing this? But if I did, how would I do it and where should I go? I've done the college thing already, I have an AAS, a BS and 24 credits towards a Master's Degree! But going back to school with a bunch of young kids for FASHION DESIGN!!!!
Well by November (2010) I made up in my mind that I was going to do it! 2011 was going to be the start of
RE-DESIGNING ME! I still had to finish up with 2010 and believe me it went out kicking and screaming! In November I also got accepted into the Art Institute of New York City!!! This was soooo totally exciting for me but how was I going to pay for it?? I didn't have the answer to that either!!! But 2011 was fastly coming in and I was determined that I was not going in with the same perspective that i've been having. Things were going to be different and things were going to be better!